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Thursday This N That - Midsummer Goals Check In

Thursday, July 28, 2016
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So I have been thinking about my summer goals a lot lately which is very unlike me. I couldn't really remember what all I set out to accomplish but the ones I could remember it seems like I am making progress on. So I thought it would be a dandy time to take a gander at the list and see where I am winning and losing. Since I have all this time on my hands and so forth. If you missed the long version of this post where I linked up with Steph you can take a peek here

Meal Prep Well no, but only because I am currently not working and thus the need for meal prep is pretty much non-existent. I have been keeping a good supply of healthy food on hand though so ...Winning

Mail Totally mostly Winning on this one. I have gone from 3 stacks on the cocktail table (which is not a good look) to 1.5 stacks in the kitchen. Sometimes I move things around just to make it feel like progress but I did really sort and condense and trash/file about half of it so far. So good. 

Purge Clothing 50/50 on this so far. I have bags and piles ready to go. Ready to go being the 50% fail part. Now to get them gone. 

Read A Book On My Nightstand Omg... I finished that one book I started forever ago. Yeah, it was not that great which is why I put it down in the first place but I wanted to see how it ended. And I started another one... so far it is really good. Winning

Brunching yes I am but nowhere new so this is still a Fail.  

Braves Nope.

Birthday Dinner Well... not yet but if I land a job before then I am making the Reservation at Gunshow. Right now fine dining doesn't seem prudent.

Blog 3x A Week Holy balls... I just looked and I am actually one hundo Winning on this one. Go blogger me. 

New Thing I can't really think of anything blogworthy so I am going to say No. Losing, but there is time yet!

Huh... I am actually feeling pretty good about myself now. 

How is everyone else doing on their list?

So I've Been Thinking... To Whole30 or Not?

Wednesday, July 27, 2016

The first step is always the hardest! #quote #inspiration #TEAMride:

The first time I did a Whole30 was a few years ago when I was unemployed and it was a huge success for me for many reasons. If you don't know you can read about it here. I went back and recently read that post searching for inspiration and I immediately felt that this might actually be the perfect time for me to do another one. Have I lost my mind? Ummm.. it's summer time, pool time, concert time. It's really not the perfect time to go hard on the eating and drinking things. Or is it?  I am between gigs right now and fighting the fight to stay upbeat and positive but I feel the stress starting to grate on me. The stress of not being in control of things, big things, and letting certain other big things get out of control again. So I am thinking while I have a lot of time to devote to actually managing a Whole30 and rocking it I probably should and here is why:

  • As I mentioned here I am out of control. When I found out back in April that my contract position would likely be coming to an early end I let the "woe is me's" take over and gave myself permission to self medicate with all the things I could put in my mouth. Meh... it is what it is. 
  • I'm a control freak in certain aspects of my life. Not in regards to others but just me.  I don't have to control all of it all the time and I usually let my job fill that need so when there is no job I need another thing to take it's place and that thing needs to just be about me. I am a firm believer that in large part our health is completely within our control very simply by making changes in food and exercise. 
  • I flipped through the calendar and noticed that August 1 lands on a Monday. I mean, I like logical things. Starting something new on  Monday and on the first of the month is just too perfect to pass up, isn't it? If the first was on a Friday I would be a lot less jazzed. This is my sign...
  • You can totally have a 100% successful Whole30 while working full time in an office setting it just takes more planning and prepping. Being at home and being able to be in the kitchen whenever to whip up perfect Whole30 meals is a gift. I kind of don't want to pass that up. 
  • My shorts don't feel good and unless I want to go out and buy a size bigger I need to buckle down and man up. Stop the insanity. 
  • I have been wondering if not really feeling my best or fitting into what I want to wear is affecting my interview vibe in a negative way. It's really not good when you walk into a room feeling like you don't look your best. Sadly people judge you on your looks. 
  • My new oven is coming soon remember? Apparently it takes a minute weeks to ship giant things across the country but it is coming. That means massive amounts of cooking amazing things is immediately on the horizon. Perfect time to be immersed in food. 
  • I feel gross all of the time and I want to feel the Tiger Blood again. It happens to me every time and it's something that stays with you. If you don't know what I'm talking about it's basically getting to the point in the program where you physically feel the effects of the Whole30 mind, body and spirit. 
  • I need something positive to focus on. Something that, don't take this the wrong way, but something that makes me feel superior if even  only in my own mind. I get down on myself and I tend to sometimes take responsibility for things that are really out of my control. Fatal flaw. This is always a positive experience and makes me feel empowered! 

Here's the thing though, I have a few dates on my August calendar that are going to be extremely challenging to navigate and stay on Whole30 100%. Like a private wine tasting that I PLANNED for a group of friends. How do I get through that? Two concerts, possibly a third. A really good friend's birthday that usually means going out and getting mildly shit faced and Ubering all over town. All things to think about but honestly none of these would be worth giving up the end result of feeling 100% better and more in control in 30 short days. Yes, the immediate gratification whore in my soul loves this most about doing a true Whole30... it works fast and the results are palpable in so many ways. 

I have 5 more days to decide and commit. What do you guys think I should do? 


Monday, July 25, 2016
How is it the last week of July exactly? I just can't wrap my brain around school starting in less than 2 weeks. I am sad, I am really loving the relaxed pace of the summer. The weekend was just exactly that... relaxed and pretty awesome although not super exciting. I kicked it off a little early with dinner out at a new local spot Tam's Tupelo and it did not disappoint. It's super close to my house and I have a feeling that the bar will become a regular spot for me. It's in a weird little strip mall but one of those places that you walk into and say "wow... I never would have guessed it would look like this" really nicely done.  We had  the Fried Green Tomato BLT Sliders, Gold Coast Shrimp, Shrimp & Grits and some amazing sweet potato biscuits... all pretty damn good. I had my favorite cocktail, an old-fashioned and it was delicious. We even ran into some of our local politicians... too much fun was had. Friday was a recovery day. And maybe a little Saturday too... maybe. 

I ate really clean all week long and admittedly indulged... but worked out, over the weekend. Met one of my best guy friends out for an awesome Greek omelette Saturday morning and no bloody Mary's... whaaaaat? I was good then but later Deep dish pizza and the best 7 Layer Bean Dip like ever made an appearance. Dun dun dun.  It was my last summer ladies tennis match of the season on Sunday so I thought I would make something extra good to eat. Check out the link to the original pin here and make it next time you need a quick and easy crowd pleaser. I mean, who doesn't like 7 Layer Dip? Using refried black beans instead of pinto is key, so much better! I also cheated and used a package of store bought spicy guac so it wouldn't get brown and gross overnight and it stayed perfect. Definitely the way to go if you are making ahead. 

I also finished a book that was not really worth even talking about, binged on season 2 of Vikings, did massive amounts of laundry so that the kids will come home to everything clean and fresh including sheets, blankets, pillows and had a date on Sunday night. I have been cleaning out closets, and bagging up clothes and shoes for days. Trying to decide if I want to donate, sell to consignment or Let Go. Honestly, I am just psyched to be making progress on that summer goal. So that's my weekend in short. Hope you all had a good one!


Linking up with Biana.

I'm Out Of Control... Confessions of a Fatass

Tuesday, July 19, 2016
I have been on a huge bender and I am not proud of it. Yesterday I was forced to take a long hard look at myself AGAIN in the mirror when I was trying to find an outfit to wear to my interview.  I can't zip a skirt I bought in April. I want to kick myself in the ass. Everything is tight. EHV-REY-THING. And that is not even the worst part. I just don't feel good. I'm tired, achy, moody, my stomach is a mess and my sinuses are going nuts.  I just generally feel like crap and it is all food related. 

Does anyone else do this? I am on point for months at a time and then boom, some stupid thing goes awry in my universe and I derail like a  freaking locomotive eating and drinking all of the things.

Does anyone else gain 10 pounds in like 5 minutes when it takes like 30 days of blood, sweat and tears to lose 10 pounds?

I really lost my shit yesterday. It was not a good day despite the fact that I had what I think was a good interview. I think... I don't really put much stock in what I think in that arena these days though. But about losing my shit, my clothes are all tight again and I am disgusted. Disgusted that I feel like I can't get off the hamster wheel of trying to get healthier succeeding and then failing over and over again. I am an active person, I eat a lot healthier than most people I think. What the fuck is my problem? I know how to do this, I know what works for me. Isn't that a huge part of the struggle for most people? I figured that out several years ago, for real, through various diets, eating plans, trial and error. I've done the work. I just can't stick with it. 

So what are the real problems for me? Because it's really not just one thing but the perfect storm of events that lead to my downfall every time.

Certainly that is huge, I eat and drink to feel better when I am stressed out, I know that is a fact. 

Poor Planning 
Absolutely, no plan is a plan to fail... cliche but true. 

Yes... I don't always want to shop and cook and prep healthy meals for myself and my family especially when I am down in the dumps about stuff. 

I have a social life that revolves around drinking. Sad but true... I know I am not alone here but being single definitely doesn't help matters on this one.

Shitty Food Choices
This is in direct correlation to the previous one. Even one glass of wine or a beer gives way to making really bad food decisions for me personally. I went to bars and restaurants during both of my Whole 30's and made good food choices. As soon as alcohol is in the picture the odds of that happening diminish drastically.  

Lying to Myself
Saying things like: 

"I totally didn't eat anything today so I can totally eat Nachos and drink Beer for dinner." 

50/50 is really not so bad. 

I worked out today so...

But I never eat fast food. Just fancy doughnuts. And pizza. And not like every day so it's ok. 

So I guess it's time to stop the madness again. Tears and frustration don't fix anything. I should do another Whole30. Yesterday was a perfect Whole30 day really, this could be day 2. But ugh... it's hard. And I hate even saying that but... Summer weekends at the pool and the lake, birthdays, concerts all coming up quickly. will present challenges but nothing I haven't done before. I am not sure what I am doing yet but I just felt like I wanted to write it down here, it makes me feel better. Sometimes that alone gives me some clarity and focus. 

In other news my new double oven shipped yesterday. I cannot wait to do some serious grain free baking! Also I have a date tonight. Write it down it's a record... 3 dates in 3 weeks. Wish me luck on that too.