Thursday, April 21, 2016

The Breakfast Club and David Bowie:

Hey... I am still here. Alive and well. I have been knee deep in finishing up at the old job and full time looking for a new one. This is like 2 full time jobs if you want to know the truth. I know everyone knows what it's like to be looking for a job. Factor in while working, juggling 3 kids and a pretty hectic list of other obligations and perhaps you can see why I have been MIA. I'm tired and I don't have to tell any blogger how much extra work blogging is but for those of you who are just readers, it's a crap ton of extra effort on top of what all bloggers already do in real life. But... I miss everyone and I wanted to at least tell you guys what's going on in my world. Big things...

Over the past couple of weeks I have interviewed with 4 companies and honestly I am really excited about the opportunities that might come out of any one of them. The first of the face to face round was yesterday. I hate interviewing, I really do. I get so worked up about it and it just is what it is, there is only so much preparation you can do at this point in your career. I have done it a thousand times now. I'm good at it but what I am really good at now is knowing what I am not excited about. I am torn between any job is better than no job or... wait for the perfect job. Newsflash I feel like in a lot of ways I just lost the perfect job, in a lot of ways it wasn't but in the ways that matter for my sanity it was.

Here's the other thing... I am secretly looking forward to like maybe a little time off to interview and think about what I want to do next. The first thing my 10 year old said when I told her my job was ending was "oh good, you'll be here every day when I get home"... stick a fork in my heart please. But seriously... I can deep clean my house, goodwill and sell stuff, clean out closets, blog to my heart's content. Even if it's just for a couple of weeks I want that. Selfish? I want to cook and get back to all Paleo/Whole30 all the time. All the stress of the last month has gotten me way off track again. I want to go for long walks with my dog after I put my kids on the bus in the morning, like one of those Mom's that doesn't work. Not forever but just for a minute, it would be like a mini vacation for me. So... I am really hoping that I get to do that.

I am not looking forward to Friday, my last day. I have to say goodbye to people that I really have enjoyed and I am sad.  I have to walk away from a project that so many people put blood, sweat and tears into that will most likely never become a reality. I have to leave one of the coolest places I have worked in a while and hope to find something even better. The good news is that typically something better always comes along. My resume is really strong and this last year has added some really valuable experience to it. But... it's still hard and that has been making it difficult for me to focus on this space. But I will again I hope sooner than later.

Thanks for reading if you hung in this long, I am not sure this was a stellar piece of writing but it is what is on my mind at this exact moment in time. I am not always the greatest at adjusting to change these days, it takes me a minute. Go figure... I should be a Pro!

Turn and face the strange,


  1. I'm sorry Amy. It's hard and exhausting and time to recoup would be a great thing.

  2. I think having a few weeks off in between jobs would be so good for the soul!!! Best wishes on your interviews.

  3. Good luck girl! I totally feel you! I resigned from my current teaching position back in February & have been spending the past couple of months doing my current job as well as looking for a new one. It really is tiresome. About the same time I resigned is about the same time I took a 2 month blogging break so I don't blame you at all.

  4. Hope you get the time you need & find the best job for you ever!!!

  5. I actually loved this post. I like when people do real talk! I start stims tomorrow and you're leaving a's a big deal Friday, huh? Blegh...onwards and upwards i guess! Hang in there love!

  6. i don't think it is selfish at all, i think that it is absolutely necessary in between jobs! i hope today goes well, as well as it can!