Smoking Hot... Not Smoking

Tuesday, May 20, 2014

Who did not love Sex and the City??? I mean really, I know very few women friends that didn't love it and also didn't have their own opinion of exactly which character they were. I would say that there are bits of me in each character, I think a lot of women could say that too but I think that I am most like Carrie if I really break it all down. Fabulous, smoking, hot mess Carrie looking for love or not.

I love her kind of style, kind of fabulous and a little messy but in a concerted effort sort of way. Does that even make sense? Of course I don't have a Carrie Bradshaw budget but I am definitely of the same mind when it comes to style only in a concertedly Target kind of way. With a touch of Old Navy and some TJ Maxx... 

Anyway that's not even my point. One of the things I said yesterday about my new tattoo... my 3 arrows, is that it symbolizes three big things that I got past last year. And they were all big, like larger than life big. One of the reasons I have always felt like a Carrie is that for as long as I can remember I was a smoker. Dun, dun, dunnnnn....Shock... horror... I know,  I know... it's disgusting and I hate admitting it. But I love saying that one year ago last week I put it down for good. I am soooo proud of myself for doing that I can't even tell you.  

I smoked on and off since high school. I say that because I quit during each of my pregnancies cold turkey and at odd other times over the years... New Year's resolutions that resulted in cheating by the Super Bowl. But then  I had a health scare like a lot of smokers do (and if they say they don't they are lying, the coughing, the wheezing, the chest pain) and it was enough to scare the tar and nicotine right out of me fo good!!! I had a freakish event of extreme high blood pressure and a series of nose bleeds that sent me to the hospital. I never, never, ever get nose bleeds so I knew something was wrong. Really wrong, and I was right. I spent two and a half days in the hospital trying to get right... they really couldn't figure out what was going on or why I wasn't having a stroke or a heart attack. No shit... they actually told me that. When they finally got me under control and let me go home they actually said they thought I was experiencing "aortic dissection" very rare but essentially your heart rips in half. Nice. Believe me the irony of the fact that I was going thru the most miserable end to a marriage possible was not lost on me in this heart tearing scenario. Yeah... crazy I know. 

I maintain that some of this is hereditary (everyone in my family has high BP, even the skinny bastards) and some of it is me being an asshole and not taking care of myself and doing stupid shit like smoking. Some of it was unbearable stress in my life that I pretty much wasn't dealing with at all. I am working on all of that but the smoking... the smoking is huge!!! And it's done for me. Now, lezbihonest, I still miss it at times... drinking in bars, driving, talking on the phone were really hard in the beginning but it's getting easier. Now I get irritated when I smell it, I have become one of those former smokers. Yay!

I don't even know why I decided to tell you all this but, I'm proud. I finished something, which I have a bad habit of not doing. It was really hard and I did it, because it was my time to be less selfish and do the work. It's easier to just take the easy way out and not change anything. The change is what makes it amazing though... new things start to come out of it. Like maybe instead of being smokin Carrie, being smokin hot Carrie!

I am not going to ask you to tell me your worst vice or anything like that. We all have our shit and sometimes it's painfully embarrassing to be a slave to those things but they can be over come!

And while we are at it... whats your SATC character? And DON'T SMOKE!!!!

 Everybody go be fabulous!


  1. Congratulations! I am so proud of you! I was a heavy smoker in my late teens/early 20's and I quit in 2009 after my sister passed away. It is SO HARD to quit, but so worth it. Now I hate smoking and find it hard to imagine that I ever did. you will never regret quitting, that is for sure! Good for you.

  2. i never smoked - ever. i was the only girl in a group of 20 friends who didn't smoke so when everyone went out for a smoke, i was the only one left inside! congrats on kicking the habit. my dad was in his early 60s when he kicked the habit - just woke up one day and decided he'd had enough. never touched a ciggy ever again...that that was after smoking for more than 40 years!

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  3. congrats!!! that is so awesome, something to be proud of for sure!
    literally everyone in my family smokes - mum, dad (dead now), brothers, half sisters, nana... seriously. i never did. hate the smell and the taste. yuck. but i can understand being addicted to something, for sure! i've had my share of other issues, haha. seriously, way to go girl!
    also... i dont know. there are 4 of us in my 'group' and one is obviously Samantha, and the other one is obviously Charlotte. The other girl - in my opinion - should be Miranda so I can be Carrie, not that I am anywhere near as awesome as Carrie, but she is more Miranda than I am - make sense? haha. so I'm Carrie bitches.

  4. Good for you, girl! I can't even imagine how hard quitting something like that must be!!!! :D
    I don't really think I relate to any of the SATC characters to be honest though!

  5. SO proud of you!! It's such a horrible habit and I am glad to know you quit!!

    I think I am Charlotte LOL

  6. Kudos on quitting. I am a former smoker and it is hard as F to quit.

  7. I always though I had a little bit of Charlotte in me, mixed with Carrie. I LOVE Sex in the City, most of my fabulous advice comes from that show :)

    Congrats on the quitting smoking. I just quit 8 months ago and I LOVE being a non smoker. It has changed my life. Especially since I was convinced I would never quit after so many failed attempts.

    1. Congrats to you too!!! It is really hard. Yes the SATC life advice is pretty valuable lol. I would have replied to you directly but you are a "no-reply blogger" which you may not even know. Here is a link to a great tutorial to fix that so we can email you back directly when you comment! (Source Venus Trapped In Mars)

      Fix it here:

      Thanks girl!

  8. I hadn't smoked in years and with all the stress I'm going through now, I've been picking it up. It's a horrible habit!!! I don't do much of it, it's more on the phone or when I'm alone outside. I can't do it with the kids. So I'm proud of you, and will look to putting it down. Stress should push me to workout, not smoke ;) Also, I'm totally CARRIE! :)

  9. So PROUD of you! I've never smoked but can't imagine how hard it is to quit . . . I can't even give up sugary crap much less something more addicting so yay you!! And I'm tardy to the tattoo party . . . love the new ink. Love the symbolism of the arrows and I love that each kid got a say in their design! And sadly, I'm probably most like Miranda . . . although I wish I had more Carrie in me! ;-)

  10. Good for you! I have never smoked, but have had friends who have has the hardest time trying to quit! And I LOVE STC!!

  11. I've never tried smoking. My parents did and I always hated it. Good for you girl. You dont deserve to do that to yourself!

  12. I smoke but am a health but at the same time like that doesnt even make since. I want to quit but dont at the same time UGH!
    I think Im most like charlotte...the hopeless romantic

  13. You should be bragging and proud! It is a huge habit to overcome. I tried smoking in high school and did it for a quick social experiment that lasted about three months, but it wasn't a full on habit. Probably less than an entire pack for my life.haha.

    I have to admit to being Charlotte 100%, not the money part, but the uptight and slightly prudish one in comparison to others. Sad but true...maybe that is why I tried to break the image with the smoking thing? hmmm. But the goody goody in me couldn't keep up the facade. ha!

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